I don't like what's going on at the moment. I've been really happy all this weekend but now, when I'm alone again it feels horrible. Well, at first everything was alright, but then there were these thoughts creeping into my brain, taking it over completely and now my brain feels like it's about to explode.

The thing is, though, that if I don't do anything about this it will probably stay like this forever and ever. And even if it does go away, I'll probably be mad at myself for not doing anything about it.

I'm so sorry if I disappoint anyone, and I hope that you all know that I love you.